Gratitude

4/365

Today I am thankful for smoke breaks. Those quiet moments in between class and tasks at work. Where I take some time to just sit and be with myself. Where I finally let myself do nothing and just enjoy my company.


I am so fortunate to have found a therapist so perfectly suited for this point in my life. Today she asked me if I think I am deserving of self-compassion. When I couldn’t answer she asked me what I thought self-compassion meant. I took a deep breath, looked her right in the eyes, and said, “I guess it means always assuming I’m doing the best I can.” No one has ever asked me that question before. No one has ever asked me if I deserve it. I’m looking forward to learning how to believe I am.


We’re doing inventory at work right now. For those of you who don’t know, I work in a bead shop. This means we have hundreds of thousands of different beads and we are counting every single one of them. Every ear wire, ever bead cap, every card of silk. Everything. I am so happy that I work with people who are making this time amusing and enjoyable instead of the incredible stress heap it could be. I’m also insanely grateful for the scales we bought this year so we can count by weight instead of by hand.

6 thoughts on “4/365

  1. Ruby, if you are working with people who can make that kind of inventory fun, you are incredibly lucky. I imagine that the therapists question would be a stumpper for a great many people. I hope you find your way to saying “yes” to that. And, smoke breaks are vital, even for those who don’t smoke.

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  2. I’m happy to know that there are so many people that makes our journey amusing. And that there are so many ways to divert stress – if not to mold it to something so – light and easy.

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