Mental Health

Balance

"Balance of Trade" © Jed Sullivan, 2013. CC BY 2.0
Balance of Trade” © Jed Sullivan, 2013. CC BY 2.0.

A friend posted something on Facebook that said, “Talking about our problems is our greatest addiction. Break the habit. Talk about your joys.” What a tragic mindset. A dangerous mentality. I appreciate the idea that complaining doesn’t do anyone favors. But I feel talking about the things that trouble us is one of the most important, powerful, and helpful things we can do for ourselves. That’s one of the reasons I keep a blog. Somehow I hope that talking about depression, about recovery, about the things that are difficult for me removes some of their power and creates a sort of community. Ever-hopeful knowing none of us are alone in this makes getting out of bed a little easier.

There’s another side to it, though. Sometimes I feel like all I’m thinking about is how hard life is. I try hard to pay attention to the loveliness in life and the beautiful moments I get to be a part of. Every day I try to give myself credit for the little things. When Mason has to physically pick me up and get me out of the door to go running in the morning, I still try to give myself credit for putting one foot in front of another for thirty minutes. I got up this morning when my alarm clock went off, even. I fed myself, showered, dressed. I’m still sober. And here I am writing. There are all sorts of good things I’m doing.

Where is the balance? A tightrope walk between knowing how buried you are and remembering how well you can dig.

6 thoughts on “Balance

  1. There’s a certain beauty and strength that is found in vulnerability. Being able to talk about our struggles.. requires one vulnerable. It everyone can do that. Both those who can seem to appeal to me more so than those who cant. Maybe because I’ve always had a hard time being able to say “Yeah.. I’m unhappy. I was taught I had no reason to be unhappy because I never had the struggles my immigrant family did. Little did they know how much stress they put on me just with their unexplained expectation for me to succeed.

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  2. I just realized how many typos are in that comment. .. ugh.. I’m glad you can read it still lol

    I’m at work. Got those thoughts out between patients =P

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