
Last night I curled up on the couch hoping that maybe, just maybe, if I could fold into myself tight enough I would simply cease to exist.
Today I got up, put on three layers of clothing plus rain gear, and took a walk with a friend.
Came home, did laundry, and went running.
I showered, dried my hair, did my make up, put on a dress, and went out the door for dinner with friends. Just like we planned.
Some days I feel like every activity takes every ounce of motivation, of effort, of energy I can possibly give. But I did them anyway. And that is such an incredible accomplishment.
Yesterday I had such a bad headache I took one hour to just do nothing. So I napped. Then I got up.. and wiped out 4 major things on my to do list… all while wanting to throw up. But when I realized those things were done I had the biggest sense of accomplishment. I swear it was even greater than what I felt when I finished college. I’d like to blame my lack of motivation on the weather.. but I think it’s just me.. and it’s normal.. and it’s something that is meant to be.. and something that we fight through. And those who fight most.. seem to be more successful over all. But it’s not an always type of deal. I don’t think. I don’t know. I think too much and this comment has gotten longer than I intended it to be. Love!
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I’m so glad you were able to relish that sense of accomplishment. It’s easy to feel like, “Ah! This is not enough. I should be… I should be…” and forget that we are always making strides.
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